Rainy day, rainy heart...
Saturday, October 27, 2007 x 3:38 AM
1 PM. Outside is raining.
Raindrops Keep Falling on My Head plays on my iTunes. What a coincidence!
My mood is just like how the weather is right now. It rains...
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I woke up in an okay mood this morning. Neither sad nor happy. And like usual, I turned on the computer down the hallway (my laptop couldn't get any internet connection that time). Then signed on to my MSN. And like usual too, I greeted one of my friends (one of my bestest friends I can say). And started my rainy day...
Well, he was sad. I mean very very sad. He told me pretty much how he is feeling. All I could reply was "awwwwww", with a lot of sad faces =( =( =( =(. Nothing much was said. Just "awwww"s and sad faces.
It's horrible! I feel very useless as a friend. The fact that he always tried to comfort me when I'm all down (and succeeded), and that I'm unable do the same thing to him, makes me hate myself a LOT!!! I'm such a bad friend. Yes, people! Irene is a bad friend. And however many times I apologize, it doesn't make a big difference.
It's not that I didn't try. I tried. I tried my hardest to cheer him up. But I've always failed. Does that failure of mine means that I've failed to become a friend? A friend that I've claimed to be the best... Do I deserve to be called his "friend" (if he considers me as one)?
I hope I won't lose another friend. Another best friend! I've lost two in a year. Losing a best friend is like losing a part of life, isn't it?
I can't think right now. Lol. So I'll just end this post here.
And for my last words, I am truly sorry.
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The rain outside has stopped, but why are my tears still falling?
~ReNez!~
